5th Wheels and Menopause

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A random picture that I took. 

Writing on the weekend has become a challenge for me. I guess it’s because Hubs is home. Also … the past two Saturday’s, we have been driving an hour and half to two hours away to go look at different 5th wheels.

This past Saturday, we drove to see a used one. It was only about a year old and hardly used. It was in great condition. The only problem was that for the price that the guy wanted for it… we can buy a brand new one! He was unwilling to negotiate. Sooo… our hunt continues.

 

The trip to go see that one wasn’t a total waste of time, thankfully. We now know EXACTLY which 5th wheel we want!! I think we’ve been looking at them for almost a year now!

 

Anyway…

 

Business with Poshmark has been slower this week. I dropped most of my prices to hopefully get some sales. We’ll see.

 

My friend Ele brought some things to church for me to sell for her. So… I will be busy preparing and listing those items. I also have a few more of my own things, too.

 

My daughter Ansley and my sweet granddaughter, Rosey are coming on Wednesday! YAY!!! It’s going to be a good week, but also a VERY busy one!


Journal Entry: Monday – March 16, 2015

I have a headache this morning!! I’m sure that it’s sinus pressure, though.

I must quit eating so many CARBS!!! I feel SO bloated and uncomfortable!! It’s my own fault. I know I feel totally unmotivated. I also feel tearful and depressed. I feel SO OUT OF WHACK!!! I want to feel good again! UGH. I really should cut out the carbs and see if it helps.

I need a good cry, but Hubs is home and I don’t want him to hear me. 

Why am I all “screwed up”???? I just want to be happy and feel good and… have ENERGY! I am such a mess.

MENOPAUSE SUCKS!!!

It would have been nice if someone had told me how horrible it could be! I know that all women go through it different, but mine is HORRIBLE!!!!

Maybe mine is bad because I have Hashi’s, too?? Hmmm…. I wonder.

 

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LUCKY!!!!

Sorry about not writing yesterday. I was EXTREMELY busy!! — Which is a GOOD thing!!

I was busy trying to finish up listing all of the clothes that my friend Katie dropped by last Monday. (She had 12 pieces and it took me aaaallllllll week to get them prepared, photographed, inventoried and listed! Whew!!! I have 3 (maybe 4!) more people that will be giving me items soon, as well. I better step up my game!!

One thing I learned yesterday was that you need to make sure that your PayPal account is set to go WAY before you sell anything on eBay!!! Geeezzzzzz. Took me half the morning to get that straightened out! And… I still can’t pocket the money yet, because I have to wait however many days for it to be set up through my bank. UGH!!! Oh well. I’ll survive. It was just a nightmare there for a bit. Hopefully…. once I get all that set up, eBay will be worth the effort along with my Poshmark!

I guess you’re probably wondering what I sold on eBay, huh? Haha…. 😉

Well… that story will be coming along as I share my journal writings with you. It has absolutely nothing to do with my Hashi’s, but I plan to share that whole YEAR that I wasted trying to do something and failed MISERABLY!! I mean… BIG TIME, FAILED!!

Anyway…


Journal Entry: Saturday – March 7, 2015

That stupid sleep medication is NOT helping me at all!! I woke up every hour last night! I did (somehow) sleep more hours, though. But…. ya… I don’t like that medicine. I am going to try and sleep without it tonight. (This is interesting. I eventually took myself off of this medication, but now… just within the last month, or so… I’m back on it!! haha!!)

It looks like Mandy will be hired by the airline. Her exam went well. We aren’t sure just “where” she will be starting out yet, though. She mentioned DETROIT, though. Yikes! 

Journal Entry: Monday – March 9, 2015 

I woke up this morning with a POUNDING headache!! UGH!!! 

I spent part of my day reading through my journals from 2012. That was a rough year and I was terribly depressed!!  (Interesting. Here I thought the past two years – 2015 & 2016 – were my most depressed years!) I’ve been trying to read through my journals to pin-point a time when all of my peri-menopause symptoms started. I’m still not clear about it, but I’m thinking that it all started somewhere between 2010-2012. 

Interesting (again). That is 8-10 years that I have been dealing with this CRAP!!  But… through all of my reading and researching , I do remember reading that it lasts for about 10 years, soooo…. that makes sense.

For any of you GUYS reading this…. I apologize.

Oh wait. —– NO I DON’T!!!

Instead… I want to say….. LUCKY!!

four-leaf-clover-genes_mutation (1) I found this picture when I Googled “Lucky”. The article that is pictured on is very interesting, if you take the time to read it. I learned a few things!

Link is in the title —

Luck or DNA – Genetics of the Four-Leaf Clover and the Search for the Elusive Lucky Gene

 

Hormone Replacement Therapy Drugs… not a good thing.

I struggle with titles for my blog posts EVERY time I write! 

I have a migraine this morning, but I am going to push through and get a blog post written for you. I’ve been missing days lately because of the holiday weekend and Hubs has been home, not feeling well.

Another thing that has had me busy the past couple of days is my Poshmark store! I had quite a few sales over the weekend AND…. I had a friend give me some things to sell for her!! WAHOO!! I have been busy processing and getting her things listed. It is time-consuming, but fun and I LOVE IT! 🙂


Journal Entry: Tuesday – March 5, 2015

Well… I didn’t wake up with a headache, so that’s a good sign! (Got one today, tho!!) But, once again, I only slept for about 6 hours. (I did this for a while. Recently it was better and I was sleeping a little more. Now…. I’m back to only 5-6 hours again.) 

Yesterday, was a good day. I did have heart palpitations ALL DAY! I don’t feel them this morning, so that’s good. Although… I kinda’ wish they were there because I have that appointment with my endocrinologist today. 

My friend, Melissa, is going with me and I appreciate that. I am so nervous! I made a list of questions to ask and my current symptoms. I made a copy for the doctor, as well. 

My eating is OUT OF CONTROL!!! And… of course… I don’t want the “good-for-you” foods. I only want the JUNK FOOD! 


Journal Entry: Friday – March 6, 2015

I don’t know if I’ll have time to write about my whole day yesterday, or not. I may have to finish it later. 

My anxiety was OUT THE ROOF yesterday as I went to go pick up Melissa and head to my doctor’s appointment! It was pouring rain, too and I could feel my BP rising. Not good. When we got there, the nurse took my BP and it was 160/97!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think KNOW it was my nerves. 

Next, we saw the doctor. He examined me and said that my thyroid was still slightly enlarged. Then, he looked at my blood work report and said that my thyroid levels were good, but my estrogen was low. He also said that he doesn’t think that I’m getting enough sleep (DUH!!) or eating enough food. (REALLY???) So, we talked about that. 

He put me on a sleep medication called… Ambien and a combined medication for my hormones … Progestin(A year later…. I learned that I should have NEVER taken this drug!) He also told me to take one of the medications for my Restless Legs in the morning instead of at night because it was for anxiety, not sleep. He said that my anxiety is why my BP is high. So, if I can get that under control, then it will help. He said that all of my other symptoms are caused by “Peri-menopause“. UGH! 

I DO still have the Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, but it is an autoimmune disease that’s attacking my thyroid. Right now… my thyroid is “okay”. (At this point… I was still unclear about what an “autoimmune disease” was and also that Hashi’s is LIFELONG, not temporary.)

Melissa and  I left the doctor’s office and went to lunch downtown at a pizza place. After that, I took her back to her office and I went to see my mom. I told her about everything and I broke down in tears when I realized how many medications that I would be taking and that I had always told myself that I would NOT be like her and be totally UNHEALTHY! (I don’t think I said those exact words to my mom, but she knew that she didn’t take care of herself and because of that… she paid the consequences with her health. I look at myself now…. and …. here I am going down the same path. I’m such a failure. I seem to fail at everything I do.  — Sorry. It’s the depression talking.)

But… really… Menopause is a natural thing that women go through, and the Hashi’s is not because I’m “unhealthy”, so… I guess I can’t blame myself for all of this. THANK YOU, LORD! 

I went to the pharmacy to pick up my new meds and the hormone drug was $50.00!!!!  I could feel my anxiety rising again had to take a few deep breaths. Since it was a new drug for me, I had to talk to the pharmacist about the side effects. —- UGH!!! NOT GOOD!!!! When I got back out to my car, I broke down in tears… AGAIN! I dreaded telling Hubs. 

The tears came flooding back when I got home. I told hubs and he “tried” to be sweet. 

I wish I could stay home today. I don’t want to go to work. 

The Day I was Diagnosed With Hashimoto’s

 

Well, here comes the blog post that I have been leading up to. My diagnoses.

Today, though…. I am in some pain. My lower right back hurts… AGAIN! I have had two urinary tract infections already this year!! I NEVER GET THESE!! What is up with it?? My mom used to get them a lot while she was in the nursing home, but… ya… I don’t get why I AM getting them so frequently! Soo… that’s one more thing to worry about. It isn’t right that I am getting them this often.


Journal Entry: Tuesday – February 10, 2015

I have ANOTHER headache! UGH. I’m sure it’s just sinus pressure, but it’s still not fun. 

Today is my appointment with the Endocrinologist to get my tests results. I am a little freaked out about it, now that it’s here. But… I know no matter what… God’s got this! I guess I’m more anxious, than “worried”. 

Journal Entry: Wednesday – February 11, 2015

No headache this morning, and I was sleeping SO GOOD!! I woke up at 5:00 and wanted to go back to sleep, but I had to get up. The heating and air people will be here this morning. (We had a new system put in)

My doctor’s appointment went okay yesterday. I have what is called HASHIMOTO’S THYROIDITIS. It is an autoimmune disease that attacks the thyroid. 

The symptoms make sense. But they are also a LOT like Menopause symptoms.

(The information below is from WebMD.)

Symptoms of Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis

Hashimoto’s symptoms may be mild at first or take years to develop. The first sign of the disease is often an enlarged thyroid, called a goiter. The goiter may cause the front of your neck to look swollen. A large goiter may make swallowing difficult. Other symptoms of an underactive thyroid due to Hashimoto’s may include:

(Yes. I have almost all of these!)

Menopause: Symptoms

Menopause Symptoms If menopausal symptoms occur, they may include hot flashes, night sweats, pain during intercourse, increased anxiety or irritability, and the need to urinate more often. — (Hmmm…… maybe THIS is why I’m having the “issue” that I’m having now.)

(And …. this is what I mean by the two being so similar!)

Is It Thyroid Disease or Menopause?Millions of women with menopausal-like symptoms, even those taking estrogen, may be suffering from undiagnosed thyroid disease. While symptoms such as fatigue, depression, mood swings, and sleep disturbances are frequently associated with menopause, they may also be signs of hypothyroidism. 

My doctor said that he was unclear as to what is causing it to happen. I have to go back in 2 weeks for another blood test that they didn’t do the first time. This will check my cortisol hormone. 

Thankfully, I didn’t have diabetes or hypoglycemia. I still need to figure out what is causing some of my symptoms, though…. like my elevated blood pressure and this tingling & burning feeling in my fingertips. 

I need to switch family doctors. I need one that is more thorough. 

My “Endo” (Endocrinologist) wants me to eat better and cut out sugar. I’ve been doing better with that, but I guess I need to do even BETTER. I also need to eat more complex carbs. – Blech!

Okay… so… think about it… 

I have a combination of ALL the symptoms of both Hashi’s and Menopause!!

I think I’ll go back to bed now. UGH.

blues-boston-exhausted-funny-Favim.com-4075377 ( photo credit… favim.com )  So CUTE!!!!