Mother’s Day Tears and Fears

I had a pretty good Mother’s Day. I cried a lot a LOT, but I knew I would. I was not crying over just my mom not being here, but other family issues, as well. All I can do is pray that the situation gets better and forgiveness takes over. I know all to well how resentment and bitterness can ruin a relationship. It’s better to forgive and move on. Put the past behind and move forward.

Hubs and I took Levi down to the river walk near us since it was a beautiful morning. He doesn’t walk too well on a leash, but he’s still young. I took a lot of pics. I’ll share a few.

It was a perfect morning for a walk!

Back to the reason for this blog….


Journal Entry: Tuesday – February 3, 2015

Work was okay, yesterday. I used up all of my energy there, though. I was exhausted when I got home! I tried to take a nap without taking my meds (Medications for Restless Legs) but couldn’t, so I took my meds and then CRASHED! I was out for the rest of the afternoon. (When I worked at the gym, I only worked in the morning hours. So… I was probably trying to take a nap around 1 or 2:00 in the afternoon.)

Journal Entry: Friday – February 6, 2015

I can’t wait to get my results back from the Endocrinologist. I wish it were TODAY! I have to wait one more week! UGH. My finger tips feel like they are “burning”. It’s really bothering me. (I think I had felt this sensation before, when I went to my primary care doctor. It was a weird feeling. I don’t think I’ve had it happen since this time.)

Journal Entry: Saturday – February 7, 2015

I feel like CRAP, today! I have terrible stomach cramps. I’m not sure whats going on. I keep crying because I’m scared. I am so anxious to find out my results, but I am also SO SCARED! I wish my friend Dana was here. I need a friend. I am sitting here BAWLING!! (Dana – name changed – is my long-time friend that lives outside of Atlanta, where we used to live. I don’t see her as often as I “should”. I really need to work on that!)

The good news is that my doctor’s appointment got moved up to Tuesday at 3:00. So at least I don’t have to wait until Friday, now. 

I feel VERY OVERWHELMED!! My mind is going in at least 10 different directions! (There was a LOT going on in my life at that time. I was terribly stressed, and really didn’t even know it.)

Lord, please give me peace and calmness. 

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