Nana Has an Autoimmune Disease

Happy Friday!!

I was super busy the past two days, playing with my little Rosey! I just can’t get enough “Nana time”. It’s so much fun!

Little Bug 1 You’re not going to believe me…. but, I wasn’t ready to be a “Grandma” until I saw this sweet baby for the first time! Then… of course… it was totally, love at first sight and I was extremely proud to be “Nana” to this precious little angel!

I have always heard others say that being a grandparent is THE most awesome thing in the world. Well… it IS pretty awesome!

For me, though…. the most awesome thing in the world is seeing my beautiful daughter in the “mommy” role. She is SUCH a wonderful mommy! I could not be more proud of her!! The love I have for these two is indescribable.

There are things going on in my life right now that I am also very depressed about. Things that I wish I could share, but shouldn’t. The joy and love that I feel when I am with Ansley and Rosey, brings me to different kinds of tears… happy tears! I am so thankful for that.


Journal Entry: Friday – February 20, 2015

I had a dream last night that Hubs and I were with all of our friends, camping and hanging out. Hubs was having a good time and all I wanted to do was be by myself. I did not want to socialize. — It’s weird, because that is how I REALLY feel and it’s totally unlike me. I know that it’s one of the symptoms of HYPOTHYROIDISM, but how weird it is for me to dream about it. — This really IS weird! Two years ago, I was feeling this way and I STILL feel this way!! I’m much more happy content when I am by myself. 

I went to bed last night with a headache. I’m wondering if sugar and/or gluten are the cause. If that IS the case… then I will have to change my diet! Ugh. — Over two years later, and I still haven’t totally given up the sugar and gluten. I keep trying, but I also keep failing. 


Journal Entry: Saturday – February 21, 2015

I STILL have a headache!! I had a nagging one pretty much all day yesterday. It was SO annoying! I just wish I knew if it was sinus related or part of my Hashi’s. 

Work was “okay”. I did not work out because of the headache. 

After work, I went to the book store (I LOVE books!!!) and bought two more books. They are about Autoimmune Diseases. One book talks about reversing it “naturally”, and the other one is about “Living with an autoimmune disease”. 

What scares me the most is that if have one autoimmune disease, then I am more likely to have another one, as well. (or more!!)

In one of the books, there is a quiz to take to see where you are on the spectrum of A.I. Disease.  Such as: Mild, Moderate, or Severe. — WELL… I am WAY past severe according to the numbers!!!!! UGH!! This is SOOOOO SCARY!! 

I have SO MUCH on my mind! Maybe that is why my head hurts. 

I will have to locate the books that I mention above and find the quiz and post it either later today, or tomorrow. My office is a scattered mess at the moment with Rosey’s portable bed (that we keep here) and all of my Poshmark things. By the way…. I sold another item!! 🙂 YAY!!!  And…. I have a friend that is interested in consigning a few items with me!! Wahooo!!  I’m excited!!! 

 

Learning About the Thyroid

Thank you for the prayers for my Levi. He is doing MUCH better! The vet said that he probably just twisted his knee. She didn’t think it was anything serious. She gave him some pain meds and said to let him be a “couch potato” for the next week or two to let the inflammation subside. 🙂


Journal Entry: Thursday – January 15, 2015

I got my hair done yesterday. (I have been getting my hair highlighted for many years now.) I was there for what felt like FOREVER!! I had two girls in front of me. Usually, I am her first appointment. Oh well. My hair turned out awesome and that’s all that matters! I love my hairdresser, Katie! 

I went to see my mom after that. I didn’t stay too long, though. I wanted to ask her questions about her thyroid. It turns out that she had half of hers removed because of a growth, not because it was defective! (I’m not sure what that means) Soooo….. I guess I did not get this thyroid problem from her. I don’t know for sure, though. 

I bought two books from the book store. They are GREAT and are explaining a LOT! They’re making me realize that I need to see an endocrinologist, which is a doctor that deals with the endoctrine system — thyroid and hormones. (Plus more) 

Hubs agreed with me — THANK YOU, LORD! So, my goal today is to get myself set up with an appointment with one. Hopefully, I won’t have to wait months!! 

Today, I plan to stay at home. I hope to get some chores done, but I am so distracted by all this thyroid “stuff”! All I want to do is read these books! 

Here are the two books that I bought and the links to Barnes & Noble.

HYPO book 1
LINK

 

thyroidconnection
LINK

Trying to Figure It All Out

It’s Sunday and I normally used to go church every Sunday. Here lately… I have no interest. It’s not that I no longer believe in God or that I don’t want to worship him, it’s just…… well… I’m not even sure what it is!

There is no one to blame but myself. I’ve disconnected myself and I’m not sure why.

I’m am literally sitting here trying to figure it out and I can’t. I just don’t want to go.

Maybe it’s because I’ve gained so much weight and I feel so self-conscience. Or… maybe it’s this disease. Somewhere, I read that one of the symptoms is that it causes you to not enjoy things that you used to. (I’ve looked for an article about it, but can’t locate one at this moment.)

Anyway….. It’s almost time for me to start getting ready to go and I just don’t want to.


Journal Entry: Wednesday – January 14, 2015

Monday was a good day at work. I worked out and did Zumba. I can tell that I am so out of shape. I weighed and measured for the first time in forever. It was NOT good! I weighed more than I ever have in my history of working at Curves! My inches were up, too! My blood pressure was high, as well. I have a feeling that it has to do with my thyroid. 

Yesterday, I felt extremely bloated and uncomfortable. I didn’t work out at all. All I wanted to do was go home. I went to Barnes & Noble (book store) after work to look for books on hypothyroid. I ended up buying two. (I LOVE BOOKS!) 

I came home and immediately started reading one of them. But, I started getting sleepy — which is one of the symptoms of hypothyroidism. As soon as I started falling asleep… my stupid leg started jerking!! UGH!! Soooo….. I had to take my leg medicine, which made me even more sleepy! I was a sleepy “zombie” for the rest of the day and evening. I went to bed at 8:00 and slept until 5:00 this morning! I slept really well. I hope that I am caught up enough that I won’t be so tired today. 

I “think” I am starting to feel the effects of this anti-depressant medication that my doctor put me on. I feel “weird”, like I have no emotion. But… it “could” be the depression. I have no idea. At least I’m not bawling my eyes out like I was! 

Today, I go see Katie (my hairdresser) to get my hair done. I want to go see my mom, too. I want to ask her about her history with her thyroid. She had hers removed years ago, but I don’t remember why. 


Alright… I guess I’ll go take a shower and try to get myself motivated to go to church.

I apologize for no pictures with this post. I would like to find a picture of my church and share it with you.

Oh… and I left out “links” in this post, as well. Oops!! I got in a hurry!!