Hormone Replacement Therapy Drugs… not a good thing.

I struggle with titles for my blog posts EVERY time I write! 

I have a migraine this morning, but I am going to push through and get a blog post written for you. I’ve been missing days lately because of the holiday weekend and Hubs has been home, not feeling well.

Another thing that has had me busy the past couple of days is my Poshmark store! I had quite a few sales over the weekend AND…. I had a friend give me some things to sell for her!! WAHOO!! I have been busy processing and getting her things listed. It is time-consuming, but fun and I LOVE IT! 🙂


Journal Entry: Tuesday – March 5, 2015

Well… I didn’t wake up with a headache, so that’s a good sign! (Got one today, tho!!) But, once again, I only slept for about 6 hours. (I did this for a while. Recently it was better and I was sleeping a little more. Now…. I’m back to only 5-6 hours again.) 

Yesterday, was a good day. I did have heart palpitations ALL DAY! I don’t feel them this morning, so that’s good. Although… I kinda’ wish they were there because I have that appointment with my endocrinologist today. 

My friend, Melissa, is going with me and I appreciate that. I am so nervous! I made a list of questions to ask and my current symptoms. I made a copy for the doctor, as well. 

My eating is OUT OF CONTROL!!! And… of course… I don’t want the “good-for-you” foods. I only want the JUNK FOOD! 


Journal Entry: Friday – March 6, 2015

I don’t know if I’ll have time to write about my whole day yesterday, or not. I may have to finish it later. 

My anxiety was OUT THE ROOF yesterday as I went to go pick up Melissa and head to my doctor’s appointment! It was pouring rain, too and I could feel my BP rising. Not good. When we got there, the nurse took my BP and it was 160/97!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think KNOW it was my nerves. 

Next, we saw the doctor. He examined me and said that my thyroid was still slightly enlarged. Then, he looked at my blood work report and said that my thyroid levels were good, but my estrogen was low. He also said that he doesn’t think that I’m getting enough sleep (DUH!!) or eating enough food. (REALLY???) So, we talked about that. 

He put me on a sleep medication called… Ambien and a combined medication for my hormones … Progestin(A year later…. I learned that I should have NEVER taken this drug!) He also told me to take one of the medications for my Restless Legs in the morning instead of at night because it was for anxiety, not sleep. He said that my anxiety is why my BP is high. So, if I can get that under control, then it will help. He said that all of my other symptoms are caused by “Peri-menopause“. UGH! 

I DO still have the Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, but it is an autoimmune disease that’s attacking my thyroid. Right now… my thyroid is “okay”. (At this point… I was still unclear about what an “autoimmune disease” was and also that Hashi’s is LIFELONG, not temporary.)

Melissa and  I left the doctor’s office and went to lunch downtown at a pizza place. After that, I took her back to her office and I went to see my mom. I told her about everything and I broke down in tears when I realized how many medications that I would be taking and that I had always told myself that I would NOT be like her and be totally UNHEALTHY! (I don’t think I said those exact words to my mom, but she knew that she didn’t take care of herself and because of that… she paid the consequences with her health. I look at myself now…. and …. here I am going down the same path. I’m such a failure. I seem to fail at everything I do.  — Sorry. It’s the depression talking.)

But… really… Menopause is a natural thing that women go through, and the Hashi’s is not because I’m “unhealthy”, so… I guess I can’t blame myself for all of this. THANK YOU, LORD! 

I went to the pharmacy to pick up my new meds and the hormone drug was $50.00!!!!  I could feel my anxiety rising again had to take a few deep breaths. Since it was a new drug for me, I had to talk to the pharmacist about the side effects. —- UGH!!! NOT GOOD!!!! When I got back out to my car, I broke down in tears… AGAIN! I dreaded telling Hubs. 

The tears came flooding back when I got home. I told hubs and he “tried” to be sweet. 

I wish I could stay home today. I don’t want to go to work. 

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High Blood Pressure is Scary Stuff!

memorial_day_deals_and_freebiesIt’s Memorial Day. This might be the first year in a long time that we had no plans what-so-ever. We usually are at the beach, or hanging out with friends and family somewhere. In the past…. I wouldn’t have been happy not having anything on our agenda. Now… I really don’t care.

It’s probably the depression and/or the hashi’s that makes me feel this way. I’m not sure.

I’ve been reading and exploring more about Hashimoto’s and I learn more each time I do. I’m finding it helpful to read other people’s journey’s with it. I also realized that there are many celebrities that have it. (I’m sure that they have personal trainers and LOTS of help to keep them skinny, tho!)

Here are a few links to some that I found yesterday.

Ultrahypo.blogspot.com

Shawnmynar.com

livingwellmom.com

Anyway… between all of my Hashi issues…

I still have …. my family issues (I mentioned this in yesterday’s post. This is causing me a great deal of depression at the moment.) … Hubs being sick… trying to make money through my Poshmark store … learning to sell on eBay … and a dog that won’t stay out of the pool (yaaa… it’s cute, but it’s also a pain in the *#%*!

Life is definitely interesting!


Journal Entry: Wednesday – March 4, 2014

Yesterday started off better, but didn’t go so well later. 

I was teaching a new client how to use one of the machines and I started feeling that hot “flushed” feeling that I’ve been getting. Then, my heart started “fluttering” or feeling weird. I went and took my BP and it was high… again!! 155/92!!!! HOLY MESS!!!!!  What is going on with me??? 

I got myself settled back down and even decided to try and workout, but slowly. I was doing great and feeling fine and then the phone rang and I had to deal with a couple of things. And then… it happened AGAIN!! (feeling like I did earlier) I went and took my BP again and it was 138/86.  Still high, but not as bad. 

My schedule that day had me leaving work at 11:00 am. The phone rang again and it was a co-worker who was supposed to come in at 10:00, saying that she was sick and couldn’t find another co-worker to come in for her, so I had to stay until 1:00 pm until the NEXT co-worker was scheduled to arrive! UGH!! I wanted to go home so bad!

I talked to Hubs and he suggested that I try and get an earlier appointment with my Endocrinologist (sooner than next Thursday!). So, I called and they had an opening for tomorrow morning!! YAY!! Now, I have to get all of my notes and questions in order.

I continued to have heart palpitations on and off throughout the day, even after I got home. I even felt it when I went to bed last night! (Now, that I am re-reading this…. I bet this was caused by anxiety.)

Hashimoto’s — Anxiety and High Blood Pressure?

I have been working hard on my Poshmark Store. I plan to have a Memorial Day Sale starting this morning! I hope it goes well and I can sell more items.

Another thing that I did yesterday was that I listed a couple of things on eBay for sale. I have been reading about how to sell and make money that way, too. It’s definitely keeping me busy!!!

Yesterday…  I worked non-stop until about 1:30 pm! I was SO TIRED! My plan is to treat it like a real part-time job and work it about 3 days a week, for about 4-6 hours.

My doctor bills are rolling in and I have to find a way to pay them. I am hoping and praying that I can make all this work!


Journal Entry: Tuesday – March 3, 2015

Yesterday, started off awful! But, thankfully… got better.

On my way to work, I couldn’t find my key to open the gym! (I worked part-time 6:30-11 am) I was panicking!! I called my boss and she was able to come and open up the gym for me. I got there right after she did. 

By the time that I got to work, I had FOUND the key! It was in my purse, but was on a different key ring. (I had two key rings because I swapped cars sometimes) I did not tell my boss that I had found it. I just told her that I must have left my other key ring at home.

I was very anxious most of the morning. The whole “key thing” through me for a loop! (It shouldn’t have) I was very busy all morning at work. I finally did a little bit of Zumba, but couldn’t finish because my heart rate got up too high and I could feel my blood pressure rising! UGH! I took my BP and it was 147/94!!!! YIKES!!!! 

I know that I’m not drinking enough water. I’m sure that’s not helping matters. 

When I got home, I started looking at my lab work online on the patient porthole. Everything looks fine! I know that’s good, but it doesn’t answer why I feel the way that I do. I guess it’s just the Hashi’s and nothing else. I’m not sure though. I wish I knew. 

I think a lot of my problem is that I feel stressed … BIG TIME!!! I’ve GOT to find a way to relax and get my mind off of everything going on in my life! 

Adrenal Fatigue, too??

If any of you run a business … Or are TRYING to!... you know what it feels like to make your first few sales! I made my third, last night! I know that isn’t many, but I’ve only been open for business since the beginning of this month. Three sales in 3 weeks doesn’t seem too bad! 🙂

I’m reading constantly about how to market the business and other ways to boost sales. Yesterday, I worked a lot on revamping some of my pictures and it seemed to work!!

Anyway… here’s the link to my Poshmark Closet, once again. Hope you don’t mind just a “little” bit of marketing and sharing of my excitement, here on my blog! I REALLY need to make this business work, so I can pay my medical bills and be able to stay home and work.


Journal Entry: Saturday – February 28, 2015

Well, I managed to sleep more than 6 hours last night! I actually slept 8 & 1/2!! Wahoo!!  I did wake up about 2:00, though. That is one of the signs of Adrenal Fatiguewhich I “think” I have. “Fatigue” definitely plays a part, anyway. 

Yesterday, at work, I felt good and decided to work out. But, then… about half-way through it, I had to STOP. I became short-winded and felt weak. My heart felt like it was racing, too. I took my blood pressure and it was 147/87. — Not horrible, but not good, either. 

All of this makes me so MAD!!! But… it also makes me sad. I swore up and down (to myself) that I was not going to follow in my parents footsteps and have bad health, as I got older. 

 

First Endocrinologist Appointment

Our weekend was good. We were camping with some long time friends. We have a wonderful State Park not far from where we live and it’s the perfect place to just get away for a weekend.

Friday, it was cold chilly and damp. It rained lightly on and off all day. Saturday, the weather was MUCH nicer! Sunny and warmer!

Even on the chilly, damp day… the woods were so beautiful!

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Anyway… back to that blog post that I tried to write before I left the other day. It won’t be exactly the same, but close enough!


 

Journal Entry: Thursday – January 22, 2015

I woke up this morning about 4:30 with my legs jerking! So, I’m sure I’ll be tired later. I am anxious to go to the doctor tomorrow about my thyroid.

Journal Entry: Friday – January 23, 2015

I worked this morning and “lightly” worked out. I felt like my heart was racing and I felt “flushed”. I stopped and took my blood pressure. It was WAY high again! Thankfully, I have my appointment with the endocrinologist today. I pray that he will give me some answers. Thankfully, Hubs is going with me. 

Journal Entry: Saturday – January 24, 2015

This is how my endocrinologist appointment went yesterday —

I REALLY liked the doctor. He was VERY thorough. They saw me almost immediately, which was great! I was taken back by a woman that had me get on that evil scale! Then, she took me to another room and asked me a whole LOT of questions about my health history and about my parents health history. She also took my blood pressure, and … again… it was EXTREMELY HIGH!! 147/101!!! SOOOOO Scary!! 

She then, took us into another room where we waited for the doctor. He came in and asked me even MORE questions. (Like I said… he was VERY thorough!) He felt of my neck and said that my thyroid felt slightly enlarged. He also talked to me about my diet, alcohol intake, and my sleep. He wants me to change all of that. He doesn’t feel like I’m getting enough sleep and I am not eating at the right time since I get up so early. That makes sense, of course. 

I go back next week to have blood work done and to have an ultrasound of my thyroid. Then, I go back on February 13th for my follow up appointment. 

He is checking my thyroid levels and my estrogen levels. He thinks that I may have HYPOTHYROIDISM and/or my estrogen is low. (This is what I wanted my regular doctor to check for in the first place and she said that it couldn’t be done!)

I can’t wait to get answers and start feeling better!! 

Seeing Stars, But Not the Kind in the Sky

I am enjoying blogging. I can write all day long! That isn’t a problem with me at all. My problem seems to be coming up with good titles for my posts. Why is that such a struggle??  So… forgive me if they sounds boring and not thought out. I try. I really do!!

It’s a nasty rain day here in Georgia. I’m thankful that I don’t have to be out in it today!

I am also thankful that I have had more energy lately! My endocrinologist put on a thyroid medication called “Armour Thyroid”. Of course, it’s not really to help my Hashi’s or to help my thyroid. It’s just to help me battle the symptoms of it all. This autoimmune disease will still kill my thyroid over time. Could be months. Could be years. The Hashi’s will never go away, unfortunately.


Journal Entry: Tuesday – January 20, 2014

I don’t have long to write this morning since it’s a work day, but I wanted to document that I had a MEDICAL SCARE yesterday!! 

My blood pressure has been running high. (I have been checking it at work) Yesterday, before I worked out… it was high — 139/95!!!! I was kind of scared to work out after that, but I did. 

Then, while I was doing Zumba… about 40 minutes into it… I started seeing stars!! I knew I needed to sit down. So, I did. I felt better then. It sure did scare me!!! I just pray that it’s my thyroid and nothing else. I pray that I can take medication for it and feel better.

Journal Entry: Wednesday – January 21, 2014

All I can think about is all this possible thyroid stuff!!! It is consuming my mind! I’m not really worried. (Ya, right!!) I’m just anxious to get started on some answers and get to feeling like myself again! (I’m STILL waiting on that!)

I keep thinking … what if the doctor says that my thyroid is fine?? Then WHAT? Do I keep insisting on answers?? UGH! I don’t know what to do. 

I know that I really need to quit thinking about it and let God be in control. It sure is hard to do, though. 

I’m going to get some chores done here at home this morning and then go to town. I need to run some errands and then I have to go to the nursing home. Chester ate some of my mom’s important papers! Soooo…. I have to go get copies of those and then take them to get signed. 

Chester was one of our beautiful Golden Retrievers. Sadly, he developed Leukemia and we had to put him down in April of last year. 😦

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