5th Wheels and Menopause

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A random picture that I took. 

Writing on the weekend has become a challenge for me. I guess it’s because Hubs is home. Also … the past two Saturday’s, we have been driving an hour and half to two hours away to go look at different 5th wheels.

This past Saturday, we drove to see a used one. It was only about a year old and hardly used. It was in great condition. The only problem was that for the price that the guy wanted for it… we can buy a brand new one! He was unwilling to negotiate. Sooo… our hunt continues.

 

The trip to go see that one wasn’t a total waste of time, thankfully. We now know EXACTLY which 5th wheel we want!! I think we’ve been looking at them for almost a year now!

 

Anyway…

 

Business with Poshmark has been slower this week. I dropped most of my prices to hopefully get some sales. We’ll see.

 

My friend Ele brought some things to church for me to sell for her. So… I will be busy preparing and listing those items. I also have a few more of my own things, too.

 

My daughter Ansley and my sweet granddaughter, Rosey are coming on Wednesday! YAY!!! It’s going to be a good week, but also a VERY busy one!


Journal Entry: Monday – March 16, 2015

I have a headache this morning!! I’m sure that it’s sinus pressure, though.

I must quit eating so many CARBS!!! I feel SO bloated and uncomfortable!! It’s my own fault. I know I feel totally unmotivated. I also feel tearful and depressed. I feel SO OUT OF WHACK!!! I want to feel good again! UGH. I really should cut out the carbs and see if it helps.

I need a good cry, but Hubs is home and I don’t want him to hear me. 

Why am I all “screwed up”???? I just want to be happy and feel good and… have ENERGY! I am such a mess.

MENOPAUSE SUCKS!!!

It would have been nice if someone had told me how horrible it could be! I know that all women go through it different, but mine is HORRIBLE!!!!

Maybe mine is bad because I have Hashi’s, too?? Hmmm…. I wonder.

 

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The Day I was Diagnosed With Hashimoto’s

 

Well, here comes the blog post that I have been leading up to. My diagnoses.

Today, though…. I am in some pain. My lower right back hurts… AGAIN! I have had two urinary tract infections already this year!! I NEVER GET THESE!! What is up with it?? My mom used to get them a lot while she was in the nursing home, but… ya… I don’t get why I AM getting them so frequently! Soo… that’s one more thing to worry about. It isn’t right that I am getting them this often.


Journal Entry: Tuesday – February 10, 2015

I have ANOTHER headache! UGH. I’m sure it’s just sinus pressure, but it’s still not fun. 

Today is my appointment with the Endocrinologist to get my tests results. I am a little freaked out about it, now that it’s here. But… I know no matter what… God’s got this! I guess I’m more anxious, than “worried”. 

Journal Entry: Wednesday – February 11, 2015

No headache this morning, and I was sleeping SO GOOD!! I woke up at 5:00 and wanted to go back to sleep, but I had to get up. The heating and air people will be here this morning. (We had a new system put in)

My doctor’s appointment went okay yesterday. I have what is called HASHIMOTO’S THYROIDITIS. It is an autoimmune disease that attacks the thyroid. 

The symptoms make sense. But they are also a LOT like Menopause symptoms.

(The information below is from WebMD.)

Symptoms of Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis

Hashimoto’s symptoms may be mild at first or take years to develop. The first sign of the disease is often an enlarged thyroid, called a goiter. The goiter may cause the front of your neck to look swollen. A large goiter may make swallowing difficult. Other symptoms of an underactive thyroid due to Hashimoto’s may include:

(Yes. I have almost all of these!)

Menopause: Symptoms

Menopause Symptoms If menopausal symptoms occur, they may include hot flashes, night sweats, pain during intercourse, increased anxiety or irritability, and the need to urinate more often. — (Hmmm…… maybe THIS is why I’m having the “issue” that I’m having now.)

(And …. this is what I mean by the two being so similar!)

Is It Thyroid Disease or Menopause?Millions of women with menopausal-like symptoms, even those taking estrogen, may be suffering from undiagnosed thyroid disease. While symptoms such as fatigue, depression, mood swings, and sleep disturbances are frequently associated with menopause, they may also be signs of hypothyroidism. 

My doctor said that he was unclear as to what is causing it to happen. I have to go back in 2 weeks for another blood test that they didn’t do the first time. This will check my cortisol hormone. 

Thankfully, I didn’t have diabetes or hypoglycemia. I still need to figure out what is causing some of my symptoms, though…. like my elevated blood pressure and this tingling & burning feeling in my fingertips. 

I need to switch family doctors. I need one that is more thorough. 

My “Endo” (Endocrinologist) wants me to eat better and cut out sugar. I’ve been doing better with that, but I guess I need to do even BETTER. I also need to eat more complex carbs. – Blech!

Okay… so… think about it… 

I have a combination of ALL the symptoms of both Hashi’s and Menopause!!

I think I’ll go back to bed now. UGH.

blues-boston-exhausted-funny-Favim.com-4075377 ( photo credit… favim.com )  So CUTE!!!!

Christmas Depression

For a few years, I was a TOTAL Scrooge when it came to Christmas. I guess a lot of it had to do with being a new “empty nester”. I’m not sure.


Journal Entry: Wednesday – December 17, 2014

Today, I guess I will go see my mom. I also need to figure out what else that I am doing for Christmas presents. And… I have to get a wedding gift and a baby gift for two sweet young friends. I’m ready for the holidays to be over with! BAH-HUMBUG!! 

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Photo Credit: www.readbrighly.com

I know one thing for sure. I’ll be balling my eyes out at the Christmas Eve service!! This will be the first time that both of my girls will not be there. 

I talked to Ansley and she has invited us out to Ben’s grandmother’s house for Christmas Day. That is… IF Mandy is not going to be here. We aren’t sure what she’s doing for Christmas yet. I know Hubs is NOT going to want to go to Ben’s family’s house on Christmas Day! I’m not sure that I want to either. If we don’t go, and Mandy DOES go to North Carolina … then, Ben and Ansley won’t come to our house until later in the afternoon on Christmas Day. Either way… Christmas will NEVER be the same EVER again! 

Part of me thinks that it would be fun to be part of a big family get-together on Christmas Day. But… they are not MY family. But… I can’t help but wonder if this is God’s way of blessing me with the big family that I always dreamed of. But… then again… they are nice, but they are not MY family! (I know…. too many BUTS in there! Oops)

So far… I DON’T LIKE BEING 50!! My stupid menopausal hormones are all over the place!! 

Christmas is forever changed, starting this year! I guess I just need to pray about it and hold onto Jesus’ hand and let Him guide me through it all. I need to find the JOY that my pastor preached about last Sunday.

I need to… Stop grieving. Quit being selfishThink of others first. And… be happy for them. THIS will bring me happiness. Life IS good.

Approaching 50 (part 5)

Journal Entry: Tuesday – December 2, 2014

Hubs has decided to take me to Pensacola, Florida for my birthday. I really wanted to go to New Orleans, but for whatever reason… HE does not want to go. 

We plan to stay in downtown Pensacola the first night and then stay at the Margaritaville Hotel the next two nights! I pray that it’s fun. 


Journal Entry: Wednesday – December 3, 2014 In a MONTH… I have gained 8 pounds! 😦

What is up with this HUGE weight gain??!!! Something is NOT right! 

I woke up this morning with another headache. UGH! And…. my legs have been jerking like CRAZY!! Between this and the menopause stuff… it’s awful! I keep telling myself that I’ve GOT to do something about it! I guess I can try walking instead of riding my bike in the winter. It’s too bad that I don’t have a friend to walk with me in my neighborhood. 

Yesterday, I started trying to figure out what clothes to take on our trip this coming weekend. I got extremely frustrated! I look fat in EVERYTHING!! I just want to cry about it all. 

LORD, please help me to feel better and look better. I feel so old, frumpy and fat! 

I am STILL feeling this way about my clothes! And..… I weigh a LOT more than I did on this day, here!


Journal Entry: Thursday – December 4, 2014 – LOST 2 pounds!

My RLS (Restless Leg Syndrome) is INSANE this week! It’s the worst that it’s been in a LONG time! I couldn’t even sit through church last night because of it. Then, it bothered me when I got home. I woke up at 2:30 a.m. and now, I’m awake at 4:30 because I kept waking up! UGH!! I feel like for whatever reason… my body is so TENSE on the inside. I know muscle tension and anxiety does not help my RLS. The good news is that I lost a couple of pounds! 

I went to see my mom yesterday. I told her about my menopause issues. Of course… the first thing she asked me was… “You’re not pregnant, are you?”.  OMG!!! Really, mom?? That woman has worried about me getting pregnant my whole life! GEEEZZZZZ!! 

I feel so stressed and I don’t know why. I could really use a massage … but, I wonder if it would really help. Of course… now, I want to cry. I can’t wait until I can go to the doctor and get my hormone levels checked. I feel like my body is so out of control! 

I like this journal entry because it helps me to remember how awful I was feeling before I saw the doctor(s) in the following couple of months.

One more entry coming up below, of my “Approaching 50” category, then we’ll move on to my life and “The not-so-fun side of 50”.


Journal Entry: Friday – December 5, 2014 – Back up two pounds, again. 😦

I am still not feeling the greatest. I hope I can make it through the holidays and be able to get to the doctor at the first of the year. Of course… after the holidays, while eating and drinking all the wrong foods, isn’t the most ideal time to go. UGH!

The weather in Pensacola is supposed to be perfect! Saturday, the high will be 73! The lows will be in the 50’s and 60’s. I’m going to have to re-pack!

Hubs is going to get off work early, but I have to go to town to pick up our Kenny Chesney tickets. After we both get home this morning, we will leave.

We plan to go to dinner at Outback Steakhouse when we get down there. Then, we will go to the hotel and then we will go to the historic downtown area of Pensacola. There are lots of bars down there that we want to check out. It should be fun!

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Hubs and I in front of our hotel in Pensacola, Florida. (My under-eye bags and neck wrinkles!! UGH!!)

 

Approaching 50 (Part 4)

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Photo Credit: Weight Loss for Women with Pre-Menopause

Journal Entry: Wednesday – November 26, 2014 – Gained ANOTHER 2 pounds!!

Well… here I am. My weight is just going UP, UP, UP! I am also terribly constipated. (I know… TMI!) I feel so bloated and miserable. UGH! I ate some prunes, hoping that they might help. If not, I’ll go get a laxative. (Yuck!)

I woke up too early today (of course!) on a day that I didn’t HAVE to! I hate when I do that. I had a bad dream, too. I was working at a preschool, I think. I was so lost and confused! Nothing was like it should be and they fired me because I didn’t know what I was doing! I was SO upset! 

I think I may have dreamed this dream because my life (well… my body!) is SO confused right now! I read recently that menopause is like having PMS x 10!! YIKES! How am I going to deal with this? And now… I have to go on a REAL diet, just to lose this stupid weight that I have gained! Ugh.

The REAL nightmare was all the weight that I had gained! After the holidays, I went to my family doctor and within a few months, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis by an endocrinologist.

Approaching 50 (part 3)

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* I am working on getting these blog post to appear with the most recent post at the top. Please hang in there with me as I continue to work on that. 


This next journal entry is a good one. I noted that… “my body feels so out of whack”.  (whatever “whack” is!)

cropped-img_04851.jpgJournal Entry – Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Gained another pound!! UGH!! 

Oh my word!! Yesterday was a head-spinning day! I worked 6:30-noon, but actually didn’t leave until 1:00 because I had someone come into join at 11:30. Soooo…. that was good! I worked longer, but it was worth it! 

*I used to work as a fitness coach for “Curves for Women”. If it had paid more, I would have stayed. 

I realized yesterday that because my stupid monthly cycle hasn’t happened yet – (I am a week late! And…. NO! I am not pregnant!!) … that I must be finally entering into menopause! This could be part of the reason why my weight is up. I looked it up while I had the time at work and a lot of the symptoms for “peri-menopause” (leading up to menopause) are symptoms that I have experienced over the past… maybe… 5 years! I am not trying to make excuses for my weight gain, but it could definitely be part of the reason. my body feels so out-of-whack!

Hubs texted me while I was at work and said that there was a job opening up in January in Athens, Georgia! 

*Hubs works as a mechanic for a major shipping company.

*Athens, Georgia is the home of the University of Georgia. The Georgia Bull-“dawgs“, as we pronounce it … and spell it!… down here! And yes… I am a Georgia Bulldawg fan!

He and I have talked about this before. He is SO excited about this and can’t wait to bid on the job! Yes… It IS exciting, but… I am nervous. This would definitely take me away from Ansley, of course. I barely see her as it is. And, Mandy…. we’re not sure where she will be living yet. Soooo…. I am going to pray about this and see if it’s what God wants. Meanwhile… that’s ALL I can think about!!

*”Ansley” (named changed) is my oldest daughter. “Mandy (name also changed) is my youngest. Mandy was applying to be a flight attendant at the time this was written. Ansley was still living close to home.

Hubs asked me where I wanted to go for my birthday. (I thought he was going to surprise me!) I REEEALLLLY want to go to New Orleans! We’ll see if that happens.

Between possibly moving to Athens and a birthday trip, my head (my mind) is STILL spinning!!

*Here it comes! We are getting closer to my big 5-0 birthday!

 

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