Feeling Sick and Closing Out December

I’m not writing much today. My mind is on so many other things and I can’t focus on my writing. I’m working on a way to make money from home. I just don’t feel like I can handle a job working somewhere else or FOR anyone else. I never know how I’m going to feel. For instance… I felt GREAT Saturday! Yesterday, I was just tired. And today… I feel like I could be sick. NOT a fun feeling! I didn’t sleep well last night, either. I’m not sure what’s going on.

Back to my journal — As the year ended… I was feeling more and more miserable and couldn’t wait to go see my doctor at the beginning of the year. I knew something just wasn’t right.

Journal Entry: Saturday – December 27, 2014

I don’t even want to set foot on the scales! But… I have to get back to eating right and exercising. It’s a MUST DO! My #1 priority after the new year is to lose weight. I’ve gotta’ keep that focus. 

Journal Entry: Monday – December 29, 2014

Yesterday, Hubs and I were lazy and SO TIRED! (We had a Christmas / New Years Party the night before.) Our party was a lot of fun! But… I looked at the pictures of myself that one of my friends posted on Facebook …. and OH MY! I looked SO BAD!! It was so depressing. I’ve GOT to eat better and get my energy level back! I’ve got to get serious again.

At work, we are gearing up for the “Biggest Loser Contest” that is coming up in mid January. It last for 3 months. I hope I can do well with it. Last year, I lost 9 pounds during it. 

I did work out today and I did some Zumba. One lady told me that I didn’t look happy, today. I wonder if she could see how stressed and upset I am about my weight. I’ve gotta’ get back to it!!! 



Gluten Sensitivity & Recurring UTI


This picture was taken on top of Pine Mountain, in Georgia. 

Today is Tuesday – April 18, 2017.


The weekend was a rough one for me. Well…. I say it was rough. It was really an easy one because I didn’t do a darn thing!! It was a beautiful weekend, too. I hate that I didn’t feel well enough to get out and enjoy it.

I spent the weekend lying around the house, having no energy and feeling SO sleepy!

I’m pretty sure that it was the pizza and brownies that we had on Friday night. I think that stupid gluten did me in!

I hate this. Pizza is my all-time favorite food!! That’s got to be what it was is. (I’m still feeling blah!) I felt so much better last week! So… I guess it’s back to making smoothies and eating less carbs. …. sigh.

Yesterday, my right lower back was hurting. I had this problem about a month ago and went to the doctor. They tested me for a UTI, and yep. I had one. That was the second one I have had this year! Now…. I think I have my third! Whaaaaaa…!!  This is scary to me. All I can think of is the worst! I want my old self back so badly.

I need to find a job, too. Unfortunately, I don’t think working outside my house is the thing for me. Mostly because of how I feel. My days are unpredictable. I never know if it’s going to be a good day or a bad day. This is part of the reason that I am unemployed right now. I left a very good job partly because of my health.

I need to get some chores done, but all I want to do is go crawl back in my bed! I don’t hurt today. I’m just sleepy and tired. Things could be worse, I suppose.