LUCKY!!!!

Sorry about not writing yesterday. I was EXTREMELY busy!! — Which is a GOOD thing!!

I was busy trying to finish up listing all of the clothes that my friend Katie dropped by last Monday. (She had 12 pieces and it took me aaaallllllll week to get them prepared, photographed, inventoried and listed! Whew!!! I have 3 (maybe 4!) more people that will be giving me items soon, as well. I better step up my game!!

One thing I learned yesterday was that you need to make sure that your PayPal account is set to go WAY before you sell anything on eBay!!! Geeezzzzzz. Took me half the morning to get that straightened out! And… I still can’t pocket the money yet, because I have to wait however many days for it to be set up through my bank. UGH!!! Oh well. I’ll survive. It was just a nightmare there for a bit. Hopefully…. once I get all that set up, eBay will be worth the effort along with my Poshmark!

I guess you’re probably wondering what I sold on eBay, huh? Haha…. 😉

Well… that story will be coming along as I share my journal writings with you. It has absolutely nothing to do with my Hashi’s, but I plan to share that whole YEAR that I wasted trying to do something and failed MISERABLY!! I mean… BIG TIME, FAILED!!

Anyway…


Journal Entry: Saturday – March 7, 2015

That stupid sleep medication is NOT helping me at all!! I woke up every hour last night! I did (somehow) sleep more hours, though. But…. ya… I don’t like that medicine. I am going to try and sleep without it tonight. (This is interesting. I eventually took myself off of this medication, but now… just within the last month, or so… I’m back on it!! haha!!)

It looks like Mandy will be hired by the airline. Her exam went well. We aren’t sure just “where” she will be starting out yet, though. She mentioned DETROIT, though. Yikes! 

Journal Entry: Monday – March 9, 2015 

I woke up this morning with a POUNDING headache!! UGH!!! 

I spent part of my day reading through my journals from 2012. That was a rough year and I was terribly depressed!!  (Interesting. Here I thought the past two years – 2015 & 2016 – were my most depressed years!) I’ve been trying to read through my journals to pin-point a time when all of my peri-menopause symptoms started. I’m still not clear about it, but I’m thinking that it all started somewhere between 2010-2012. 

Interesting (again). That is 8-10 years that I have been dealing with this CRAP!!  But… through all of my reading and researching , I do remember reading that it lasts for about 10 years, soooo…. that makes sense.

For any of you GUYS reading this…. I apologize.

Oh wait. —– NO I DON’T!!!

Instead… I want to say….. LUCKY!!

four-leaf-clover-genes_mutation (1) I found this picture when I Googled “Lucky”. The article that is pictured on is very interesting, if you take the time to read it. I learned a few things!

Link is in the title —

Luck or DNA – Genetics of the Four-Leaf Clover and the Search for the Elusive Lucky Gene

 

Hormone Replacement Therapy Drugs… not a good thing.

I struggle with titles for my blog posts EVERY time I write! 

I have a migraine this morning, but I am going to push through and get a blog post written for you. I’ve been missing days lately because of the holiday weekend and Hubs has been home, not feeling well.

Another thing that has had me busy the past couple of days is my Poshmark store! I had quite a few sales over the weekend AND…. I had a friend give me some things to sell for her!! WAHOO!! I have been busy processing and getting her things listed. It is time-consuming, but fun and I LOVE IT! 🙂


Journal Entry: Tuesday – March 5, 2015

Well… I didn’t wake up with a headache, so that’s a good sign! (Got one today, tho!!) But, once again, I only slept for about 6 hours. (I did this for a while. Recently it was better and I was sleeping a little more. Now…. I’m back to only 5-6 hours again.) 

Yesterday, was a good day. I did have heart palpitations ALL DAY! I don’t feel them this morning, so that’s good. Although… I kinda’ wish they were there because I have that appointment with my endocrinologist today. 

My friend, Melissa, is going with me and I appreciate that. I am so nervous! I made a list of questions to ask and my current symptoms. I made a copy for the doctor, as well. 

My eating is OUT OF CONTROL!!! And… of course… I don’t want the “good-for-you” foods. I only want the JUNK FOOD! 


Journal Entry: Friday – March 6, 2015

I don’t know if I’ll have time to write about my whole day yesterday, or not. I may have to finish it later. 

My anxiety was OUT THE ROOF yesterday as I went to go pick up Melissa and head to my doctor’s appointment! It was pouring rain, too and I could feel my BP rising. Not good. When we got there, the nurse took my BP and it was 160/97!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think KNOW it was my nerves. 

Next, we saw the doctor. He examined me and said that my thyroid was still slightly enlarged. Then, he looked at my blood work report and said that my thyroid levels were good, but my estrogen was low. He also said that he doesn’t think that I’m getting enough sleep (DUH!!) or eating enough food. (REALLY???) So, we talked about that. 

He put me on a sleep medication called… Ambien and a combined medication for my hormones … Progestin(A year later…. I learned that I should have NEVER taken this drug!) He also told me to take one of the medications for my Restless Legs in the morning instead of at night because it was for anxiety, not sleep. He said that my anxiety is why my BP is high. So, if I can get that under control, then it will help. He said that all of my other symptoms are caused by “Peri-menopause“. UGH! 

I DO still have the Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, but it is an autoimmune disease that’s attacking my thyroid. Right now… my thyroid is “okay”. (At this point… I was still unclear about what an “autoimmune disease” was and also that Hashi’s is LIFELONG, not temporary.)

Melissa and  I left the doctor’s office and went to lunch downtown at a pizza place. After that, I took her back to her office and I went to see my mom. I told her about everything and I broke down in tears when I realized how many medications that I would be taking and that I had always told myself that I would NOT be like her and be totally UNHEALTHY! (I don’t think I said those exact words to my mom, but she knew that she didn’t take care of herself and because of that… she paid the consequences with her health. I look at myself now…. and …. here I am going down the same path. I’m such a failure. I seem to fail at everything I do.  — Sorry. It’s the depression talking.)

But… really… Menopause is a natural thing that women go through, and the Hashi’s is not because I’m “unhealthy”, so… I guess I can’t blame myself for all of this. THANK YOU, LORD! 

I went to the pharmacy to pick up my new meds and the hormone drug was $50.00!!!!  I could feel my anxiety rising again had to take a few deep breaths. Since it was a new drug for me, I had to talk to the pharmacist about the side effects. —- UGH!!! NOT GOOD!!!! When I got back out to my car, I broke down in tears… AGAIN! I dreaded telling Hubs. 

The tears came flooding back when I got home. I told hubs and he “tried” to be sweet. 

I wish I could stay home today. I don’t want to go to work. 

The Beginning of Many Doctor Visits

I’m excited about my new business adventure!! I was hoping that I could add a widget for it, but I can’t do it unless I upgrade. 😦  I probably should do that. I’m just not ready to do that just yet.

But… I WILL tell you about it and maybe I can add the link into my posts. 🙂

I have discovered POSHMARK!! (You can read about it by clicking this link) It’s like having your own virtual boutique! I’m still working on getting mine set up the way that I want it, but here’s the link to MY store (or “closet”, as they call it). I LOVE clothes!!!! So, I am really going to enjoy this! I am praying that I can make it work and be able to run it like a business. It will be the perfect thing for me since I don’t feel like I can physically or mentally work out in the real world for employment.  If I want to…. I can sit right here in my PJ’s and work! Ya gotta’ love that!! 🙂

If you visit my closet and see something that you are interested in… leave me a comment that you read about it here, on my blog, and I’ll make you a deal on the item that you are interested in!

Anyway…. that’s enough for my little “Plug” on my Poshmark closet! 🙂


 

Journal Entry: Monday – January 5, 2015

Yesterday turned out to be a good day. It was pouring rain by the time it was time to leave for church, so I crawled back into my bed! LOL! Then… Hubs did the same thing! We laid there pretty much all day, watching movies. 

We watched the movie … “Crash”. It was REALLY good, in my opinion. It’s all about the racial tension among ALL races. It’s so sad that our country is STILL that way! I don’t see people by “color”. I don’t know why some still do.

Today…. I work 6:30-11, which will be my schedule all month.

I have a doctor’s appointment at 11:15. I’ve got LOTS of questions for her!!! 

I woke up with a headache. I’m sure that it’s from the barometric pressure dropping outside. It’s going to get colder and colder as the week goes on. BRRRRR!!! 


Journal Entry: Tuesday – January 6, 2015

I’ve got another headache this morning!! UGH! I was sleeping SO good when that stupid alarm went off, too! Of course, I stayed up until 10:00 watching “The Bachelor”. I normally get 6-7 hours of sleep. I only got 6 last night. (Now a’days…. I’m lucky if I get 5 hours of sleep!!)

I went to my doctor’s appointment yesterday. I had blood work done, but don’t know the results of it yet. (I hate waiting!) My doctor said that until I quit having a monthly cycle all together… they can’t really check my hormone levels. It makes sense… but…. DANG IT!!! We did talk about my symptoms and she said that I “could” go on a low dose of anti-depressant medication to help combat that. Sooooo….. I guess…. if it would help me to feel better, I guess I will try it. 

Some of the symptoms that I was having were…. 


I am skipping some of the things in my journal entries because they are just boring stuff. Nothing that is interesting. Plus… I am trying to center this blog around my health problems.  Tomorrow’s post has nothing to do with my health, but it’s a sweet journal entry. One that I will treasure, always.

Approaching 50 (Part 4)

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Photo Credit: Weight Loss for Women with Pre-Menopause

Journal Entry: Wednesday – November 26, 2014 – Gained ANOTHER 2 pounds!!

Well… here I am. My weight is just going UP, UP, UP! I am also terribly constipated. (I know… TMI!) I feel so bloated and miserable. UGH! I ate some prunes, hoping that they might help. If not, I’ll go get a laxative. (Yuck!)

I woke up too early today (of course!) on a day that I didn’t HAVE to! I hate when I do that. I had a bad dream, too. I was working at a preschool, I think. I was so lost and confused! Nothing was like it should be and they fired me because I didn’t know what I was doing! I was SO upset! 

I think I may have dreamed this dream because my life (well… my body!) is SO confused right now! I read recently that menopause is like having PMS x 10!! YIKES! How am I going to deal with this? And now… I have to go on a REAL diet, just to lose this stupid weight that I have gained! Ugh.

The REAL nightmare was all the weight that I had gained! After the holidays, I went to my family doctor and within a few months, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis by an endocrinologist.

Approaching 50 (part 3)

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* I am working on getting these blog post to appear with the most recent post at the top. Please hang in there with me as I continue to work on that. 


This next journal entry is a good one. I noted that… “my body feels so out of whack”.  (whatever “whack” is!)

cropped-img_04851.jpgJournal Entry – Saturday, November 22, 2014 – Gained another pound!! UGH!! 

Oh my word!! Yesterday was a head-spinning day! I worked 6:30-noon, but actually didn’t leave until 1:00 because I had someone come into join at 11:30. Soooo…. that was good! I worked longer, but it was worth it! 

*I used to work as a fitness coach for “Curves for Women”. If it had paid more, I would have stayed. 

I realized yesterday that because my stupid monthly cycle hasn’t happened yet – (I am a week late! And…. NO! I am not pregnant!!) … that I must be finally entering into menopause! This could be part of the reason why my weight is up. I looked it up while I had the time at work and a lot of the symptoms for “peri-menopause” (leading up to menopause) are symptoms that I have experienced over the past… maybe… 5 years! I am not trying to make excuses for my weight gain, but it could definitely be part of the reason. my body feels so out-of-whack!

Hubs texted me while I was at work and said that there was a job opening up in January in Athens, Georgia! 

*Hubs works as a mechanic for a major shipping company.

*Athens, Georgia is the home of the University of Georgia. The Georgia Bull-“dawgs“, as we pronounce it … and spell it!… down here! And yes… I am a Georgia Bulldawg fan!

He and I have talked about this before. He is SO excited about this and can’t wait to bid on the job! Yes… It IS exciting, but… I am nervous. This would definitely take me away from Ansley, of course. I barely see her as it is. And, Mandy…. we’re not sure where she will be living yet. Soooo…. I am going to pray about this and see if it’s what God wants. Meanwhile… that’s ALL I can think about!!

*”Ansley” (named changed) is my oldest daughter. “Mandy (name also changed) is my youngest. Mandy was applying to be a flight attendant at the time this was written. Ansley was still living close to home.

Hubs asked me where I wanted to go for my birthday. (I thought he was going to surprise me!) I REEEALLLLY want to go to New Orleans! We’ll see if that happens.

Between possibly moving to Athens and a birthday trip, my head (my mind) is STILL spinning!!

*Here it comes! We are getting closer to my big 5-0 birthday!

 

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